been trying to put these thoughts into words for a few weeks... ever since Lyla started waking up every 3 - 4 hours again at night (she hasn't done this since she was newborn).
it's amazing how many life lessons God has revealed to me through the birth of my daughter. there are at least a handful i could mention, but most are pretty common ones other parents often talk about.
this lesson, however, i feel is a little more unique. maybe you can relate?
i am notorious for not enjoying the moment or current season of my life - this was painfully pointed out to me by my loving husband. i fully acknowledge this fault and try to be conscious of it... BUT LIFE, MAN!
now as i ride through this being-a-mommy season, again i find myself looking back OR looking too far ahead.
here's how God showed me up ///
sometimes, we have to be dragged backwards in life to be able to see how far we have come, the doors God has opened, or the fortuitous path we have carved. this was made clear to me though my baby these past few weeks. she had been sleeping 8 - 10 hour stretches at night and while i recognized her achievement, i still wasn't happy... i wanted a FULL night of sleep. why? because other mommies said their babies could do it, so why not mine. (it hurt to write that.)
then four months came knocking and we hit the dreaded (according to Google) Four Month Regression. supposedly this is very common for most babies. they wake more and eat more due to changing REM cycles and evolving motor skills.... OH!!!!!!
all of a sudden, i found myself praying for those 8 - 10 hour stretches of sleep to return. as i sat there feeding Lyla in the middle of the night, it dawned on me that this regression session might not be as necessary for Lyla as it was for ME. i needed this slap up side the head to stop and be present in the moment. just be. just enjoy. just thank God for the blessings instead of consistently wanting something more.
hopefully this regression will end soon and we can all resume our normal sleep schedules. in the mean time i will be grateful for what is good and full of His grace.
oh, and a husband who knows me too well. {insert cheesy wink face here}
